at first you seem enjoy it. like a pleasant anesthesia you feel relaxed after quarter of a lifetime of worldly commitments. then,, you feel everything around you is moving so quick like you are the only person waiting for moving train. you try to wake and catch up with it but then you realize another thing. you are addicted to it... whether you like it or not you cant seem to get out of it...
every day you get up and think what is there to do on that day? there is no answer..
days and nights seem to interchange and you lost track of dates... food and the reason to consume it seems tasteless...
people around keep fading like dim lights who eventually vanish... leaving you in complete darkness... counting in the stars for any kind of support and company...
it also keeps you away from any desire and the effort to achieve them...
it has been many years since i ventured into this captivating territory. living in a trance has got its own pleasures... there is no one to worry and no reason to feel sad about...
no reason to run nor to fight or prove something... i have no wish and no reason...
do i wish to change anything around me? No
what do i feel like? i feel like Heaven!!
